Monday, December 29, 2008

random #2

The printer won't scan and print stuff as I wish so no pictures in the previous post.
No there WILL be pictures! Aww man... I just have to wait till I get a cpu that functions properly. (my old cpu likes weird fonts and annoying numbers on its screen. I don't like seeing weird fonts and annoying numbers. So we don't 'friend' each other anymore. Owhkay this is lame.) I need to get a cpu asap! School's starting in a week's time! Nooooo!! My holiday~

Owh lemme tell you weird stuff.
Back when the sem was about to end (that's when normal TOA students like me would be rushing their assignments they owe the lecturers, trying to finish the five-weeks-of-critique-but-only-one-bloodee-week-to-complete-the -end-product final project, other final projects that need a lot of group discussions, presentations and more presentations) dad just had to be in holiday mood. I was up several nights already trying to finish up the load of work and he happily told us one day to "pack your clothes!" and that "we're going to Port Dickson for three days!" Joy. So yeah. We stayed by the seaside and I didn't even set a toe on the beach! I friggin' stayed INSIDE the apartment doing figures! You know how I love the beach and sea?! Kesian weyyy~ On the first day I managed to do this:I kind of sort of lost the figure I did the day after that. It was in the artblock Ivan took back! But he claims that there isn't any figure in it! Cut the crap~ Long story anyway~
And now? Two weeks into sem break already but no~ No nice sandy beach to visit or sea to swim in. I stayed at home and discovered that I can grow mushrooms on my head. Joy. I wanna go somewhere! Actually I did. Camp. But I wanna go somewhere not-camp!

Moving on!
Had movie marathon today! Two at home and one at the cinema! Watched Harry Potter 5 first coz my bro was "in control" of the player. (apa laa... Just because I went to the bathroom) Then we watched Wanted. (still at home) Yes I'm kind of sort of lame, such a nice movie (actually it was awesome! I love it! Love it love it love it!) and it was released like centuries ago, and I only watched it today. And lastly, The Day The Earth Stood Still (long title) at Aeon Bukit Tinggi. Was freezing in there. But the movie was owhkay. And I had the best popcorn! So much caramel! =D But my eyes are darn tired. What d'ya expect? I never saw the tv during schooling days. So it's quite an achievement here.

Owh and...
I'm patiently waiting for the 30th to arrive. Results out on that day! Not that I've done awesomely well, but... Dunno! Guess it's pretty exciting to think that the next sem is already major sem! Animation rawks~ (although the seniors told us some scary stuff) Owh well! =)

Owh owh and...
I gotta apologize to Yean Yeon. Sorry girl. I wasn't able to make it to Jeth the other day. I said I'll make it up to you and I will. =)

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Little Cheawen

Was just sitting around watching my bros when I thought of the 'me' I used to be more than 10 years ago. Well, I bet most of us don't really remember their childhood (or maybe that's just me, coz I have severe short-term memory case) so I'm just gonna ramble about the things that I actually do remember.

Way back when I was young, real young, unlike my little girl cousins and most of my friends, I disliked Barbie dolls. Instead, I played a lot (whenever I had the chance to) with my boy cousins (because I went to an all-girl school, I didn't have many boy friends back then). We would meet up in Gramma's house, discriminate the Barbie girls and start chasing each other around the house. We'd play catch, wrestle each other, pretend to shoot each other with the toy rifle Grampa made for us (Grampa's an awesome carpenter) scream and shout at each other playing pirates and when we do get mad at each other, we'd fight but we'd all refuse to cry even if it hurts (unless it really really hurts). Well of course, I cried more compared to the rest of the boys. But the next day you'd see me and the boys wrestling one another again.

*I'll try to find some old pictures of me and put them up. I hope the printer will forgive me by then and scan them into the computer.

And about my sis, I was never close to her when we were young. I don't know about her (I mean, she always had this dumb, blur-case look when she was tiny so I don't know what she thought of me) but I hated her. I hated her and I hated her. It's funny now that I think back. We're 10,000 times closer than we used to be. Weird~ Don't even know when the sudden change of event took place. Owh well~

Back in preschool, I was in the same session as Steven, one of my boy cousins. Back then, he was a quiet and calm boy. Our mums (sometimes) pick us up (way) later than the rest of the kids. I remember once, when the hall was left with just the two of us and a few other kids, and Steve fell off the piano chair he was sitting on for no reason at all. While other kids stood and watched helpless Steve, I went to fetch the teacher who was chatting with the Mak Cik. I even shoo-ed the few little kpc's away because I didn't want them to see Steve cry. (I wonder what Steve would do if he was in my shoes. He always seem(ed) so... Timid... He's not anymore. =))

I can't recall much now, but to sum it up, I was a tomboy when I was a kid. I hated skirts and dresses. I loved jeans and shorts and plain tees. But the weird thing is, I also loved my long hair. I loved the outdoor (still do). I loved games that required a lot of running and jumping. I loved to shout. I loved the rifle Grampa made for us. I loved winning over the boys. (when you're a kid, everything's fair and even; boys never give in to girls) I loved sitting on dad's shoulder whenever we go out (I felt superior).

*I think I have a picture of that too?

I still have a bit of the tomboy-ness I developed from my childhood. And I plan to maintain it that way. I don't really care if other people don't see me much as feminine. I mean, that's the way I've always been these two decades. Kerry believes that girls don't have to be stick-skinny to be considered pretty. Totally agreed. And I believe as long as you live the way you are, you are beautiful. (I tried to be.. Uhh.. More feminine before? And it sucked. So I said, "Ahh sod it! I'll continue to hate dresses.")

So yeah.
There's a reason to why I put this post up.
You'll see. =)

Thursday, December 18, 2008

very random

I've got loads and loads of things to tell! But I'm going to camp tomorrow! Gotta friggin' wake up at 6a.m. wadaaa~ Noooooooo~ My holidays have just started...

This is not awesome...
A crush is a crush. It will remain a crush unless you do something about it. Well since I chose not to do anything at all, I shall live with it and get over with. No I'm not emo-ing!

And... Hoho! Be ready to be surprised the next time I put up a post! A whole new head baby! (head? Yes, head. Head? Yes, head. Like, head head? Yes, head!)

Hmmm... Just a random thought.
Was it really you that I saw in the restaurant the other day? Dinner? Looks like it... But I might be wrong... Owh well... =)

Kerry! Cepat balik from Malacca! Haven't seen my bestest best friend for such a long time already! XD (and no please don't ta-pao chicken rice from all the way there. Hahah!)

Owh owh owh! I am so gonna organize a bbq somewhere next year. Or the year after that. Or the next. No, really! It's time for some real gathering! Really! Yeah, next year. Or the year after that. No, I will! Really laaaaaaaa~

Aiyok camp tomorrow better go get some sleep now. SIX a.m. tomorrow! I have a feeling my sis is gonna bark and yell at me tomorrow. And she'll wake the whole neighbourhood up but not me. Then she's gonna sit down and sob coz I won't wake up. Then she'll become so frustrated that she'll start pulling her hair off and scream like orang gila. Finally when she's used up all her energy (just to wake me up) she'll fall back to sleep and we'll both be late for camp and have to go to Dusun Eco ourselves.

I should go to bed.

Monday, December 15, 2008

first day of sem break

There isn't really time to blog when the sem's about to end. The amount of final projects we had! It might be ONE project PER subject, but they're huge projects! There are tests too! We might just be sitting in a room painting away or drawing human forms out of human stick figures provided, it's still a friggin' test. I always run out of time but I still wanna deliver my best! These past weeks have been really hectic. And if I really do find time to do anything at all, I (what else?) sleep. But,


The sem has ended!

Bed here I come!
(aiyok actually I still have two pieces of figure to hand in tomorrow)

And YAY!
No drama for three weeks! Awesome~

Wait wait. Lemme tell you something really stupid.
As I mentioned earlier, yesh I still have two pieces of figure to complete. And I slept at I-kind-of-forgot-what-time-but-I-know-it-was-friggin-late last night.

This morning, kakak came into my room and said,
"Yvonne bangun, sudah pukul sepuluh."

It's weird but I actually heard her soft voice and I immediately jumped out of bed (literally jumped!) with my eyes still closed (I knocked my knee on my cupboard door) and (kind of sort of) yelled (still with my eyes closed),

My sis was on the other bed comfortably snoring away. She didn't even budge a millimeter! (or so I thought)

In all the confusion (and my brain hasn't really started functioning correctly) I managed to struggle my way out of my blanket. (I really have no idea how but) I was wrapped and coiled up in a complicated way in my blanket. Halfway trying to stand up and run to the bathroom, I looked up and saw kakak stoning near my bedroom door. THEN.

Me: Ah Yen, what day is it today?
Sis: Sunday.
Sis: ... (continued pigging)

My heart was racing like mad cow and I was panicking and so terrified and on the verge of breaking down and almost committed suicide AND she told me it's SUNDAY?!?!


Omigosh. I've never felt such fear in my life before. My heart still pumping hard, I fell straight onto my bed again and cursed at my own stupidity. After a while, I gave up trying to sleep and took my shower.

As I was walking out of my room, my sis lifted her head up from under her blanket and said,
"Nice, Jie. What a way to greet people early in the morning like that."
And we both laughed at my foolishness. Well, that's the kind of stuff you get living with me.

Owh well~

And it's Fei Xin's birthday today!
Happy Birthday girl!
Mmmuah! XD

Tuesday, November 11, 2008


So many things had happened. So many things are still going on. And I know many more things are yet to come. I just hope there are more good things than bad things. Example of bad things: I'm crapping. Again. Hahah~ Aiyak ini biasa laaa~

So anyway, I'm done with whatever emo shit I was going through. (school, basically. I just couldn't handle my workload at that time. So glad to see good old Chea Wen again. =) Hiao~)

Eyh? I haven't blogged for this long already? Alamaaa~ Owhkayyy... Let's see.





For those who know me, well you know me.
For those who, well, don't know me that well, I'm forgetful. Very. Extremely. Forgetful. It wasn't entirely my fault ya know. I was born with it. So... Yeah. Where were we?

Owh! I wanna make a shout-out!
No reason actually. I just feel like it. =p

Mr. and Mrs. Soe, Ah Yen, Ah Pin, Ah Ti!
Thanks for all the support (and pressure) you guys give!
But most of all, thanks for simply existing in my life!
=) =) =)

Ah Maa!
Ah Maa dearest~
You're the bestest best Ah Maa in the whole wide world!
And Ah Wen loves you very much!

Chea Wen!
You promised to live the life you love and love the life you live.
You better not forget that!

I love you babe!
So you got no choice but to love me back!
Grey's Anatomy rawks~

Things aren't quite the same anymore, are they?
(stoopeed question)
But I love you all the same!

Atikah, Shen, Prema, Yun Minn, Pei San, Shirin, Sue-Lyn, Elaine, Carol, Yean Yeon, Yee Ling, Chin Choon, May Jinn, Mei Wei, Ming Jie, Li Peng and everybody else I know back in Convent!
I miss all of you!
Very much!
We should have, like, a basketball game every Saturday!
I'm serious!
(imagine Sue-Lyn playing basketball)
Hahahahahah! XD

Wen Shan, Chee Thean, Alison, Ah Shin, Shin Ying, Fei Xin!
Weyy all of you!
High school might be, like, a century ago, but once a friend, forever a friend!
See, this post shows that I saved space for you guys in my very-limited-space built-in memory~
Say "Hi!" sometimes! =)

Lay Hoon, Han Zhiang, Mei Lian, librarian people and other Starians I know!
A big big "HHHHIIIIII!!!!!" with a big big smile to all of you! =D

Xiao Qing, Johnny, Andy, Jen Ruw(?), Victor(?)
You guys are great!
And I hope we can be friends for life!
Really really! =D

Sann Dee, Aaron, Kevin(?)
Drama minggu ini~
But that's what brought us closer, ya?
Hahahahah! XD

Thursday, October 30, 2008

i can

When you get caught in the rain with nowhere to run

When you're distraught and in pain without anyone

When you keep crying out to be saved

But nobody comes and you feel so far away

That you just can't find your way home

You can get there alone

It's okay, what you say is

I can make it through the rain

I can stand up once again on my own

And I know that I'm strong enough to mend

And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith

And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down don't you dare give in

You will arise safe and sound so keep pressing on steadfastly

And you'll find what you need to prevail

What you say is

I can make it through the rain

I can stand up once again on my own

And I know that I'm strong enough to mend

And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith

And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And when the rain blows, as shadows grow close

Don't be afraid

There's nothing you can't face

And should they tell you you'll never pull through

Don't hesitate, stand tall and say

I can make it through the rain

I can stand up once again on my own

And I know that I'm strong enough to mend

And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith

And I live one more day and I make it through the rain

I can make it through the rain

And stand up once again
And I live one more day

And I can make it through the rain

Yes you can

You will make it through the rain

Through the Rain

Mariah Carey

Friday, October 24, 2008

no good

Can't really feel any real emotions lately.

So what if McD's giving discounts off their cones next Saturday?
(ice-creams are always always always the best thing for me)
So what if I hand my assignments in late?
(marks will be deducted but I really don't give a damn)
So what if I've been swearing a lot the past coupla weeks?
So what if I'm a girl?
Who cares about creating letters out of pumpkin carriages?
(friggin' Letterform)
Who cares about kicking an earth around in a football field?
(friggin' Workshop)
So what if my student doesn't wanna do his piano theory?
So what if I listen to "Thunder" over and over and over again?
Who cares if I shout/sing/croak my lungs out in the car when I'm driving alone?
So what if my body is aching all over?
(haven't slept on my bed for weeks)

I want to sleep.
But I cannot.
My assignments expired.
But I'm still gonna continue doing it.
BUT I fall asleep on them all the time.
This sucks.

Xiao Qing,
I appreciate all that you do and have done for me.
Really I do.
And I can't thank you enough.
I will jia you like you always tell me to.
I hope I can keep this up.
I feel guilty though.
But that fades away as quickly as it came.

Today is Friday.
Will be going to Pulau Pangkor tomorrow.
(they didn't tell but it's probably to celebrate my parents wedding anniversary)
Will only be back on Monday.
My assignments.
I'm torn.
Torn between family and work.
Somebody tell me which is more important.
If you've lived with my family for as long as I did,
you wouldn't be able to give me an answer.
I bet my favourite ice-cream on it.

Will go pack my clothes now.
Will try to enjoy my sam suk dan tomorrow morning.
Will have chocolate in class tomorrow.
Will just have fun in Pangkor the next three days.
Will try to finish my assignments.
I will.

Just fall asleep like I always do.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

cheek exercise

-14 Oct 08-
Went to Swensen's after Drawing. Had a giant I-don't-remember-what with I-don't-remember-how-many flavours ice-cream! (ice-cream!) We talked and laughed and chatted and roared (???) like we own that restaurant. So-o-o-o loud! Especially Sandy Toopai! And Yvonne too! (Actually me included) But we had the most fun. Even in the car! Practically ignored the existance of Ivan at the passenger seat.

In the car:
Sandy Toopai: I'm telling you, Chea wen drives like a mad person!
Yvonne: *Gasp!* Really?!
Chea Wen: Heyyy! I drive like a gentle lady okaayyy!!
Sandy Toopai: See see!! She's gonna run over the bump like "Pohmm!!"
Yvonne: *Gasp!* Chea Wennn!!
Chea Wen: Eyhh~ See arh see~
*toing~ toing~*
Yvonne: Haiyarh! Where gottt??
Sandy Toopai: Aihk! Chea Wen?! No no! I'm telling you! The other day! She arh!!
Ivan: Girls... Girls... Bertenang...
Sandy Toopai: NO! NO! Seriously!! She arhh!!

At Swensen's:
Kevin: Yeahhh... Sandy's in Sandyland again.
Chea Wen: Hahahahah!!
Sandy Toopai: Yeah hahah! Where pigs can fly!
Chea Wen: And toopai's too! Hahah!
Yvonne: Huh? Tupai cannot fly wan meh??
Chea Wen: Alamaa~ Toopai can fly wan meh?
Sandy Toopai: Hahahahah!! *lost in Sandyland*
Yvonne: Huh? I thought? Flying squirell??
Kevin: (=.=)"
Sandy Toopai: Chea Wen! Tell them the sh*t joke!
Chea Wen: Hahahah! You tell!!
Sandy Toopai: Okay you all heard this sh*t joke before or not?
Chea Wen: Omg hahahah! Sandeee! You've just told them the answer!
Sandy Toopai: Aiyark shhHH laa! They didn't know!
Chea Wen: But!
Sandy Toopai: NO!!
Chea Wen: Omg~
Sandy Toopai: Okaayyy listen. Knife, is used to cut vege. Scissors, is for cutting papers. Skin is for cutting?

Well, after rounds and rounds of wrong answers, and more rounds of laughters and giggles and tummy-achings,
answer: Skin is for cutting SH*T.
Don't get the logic? Clue: See, when you sh*ttt.....


Okay okay okay~

Dig in!!!
(see the smoke coming out from the middle?
Sandy Toopai: Eyh! See! Got smoke laa!

Anti-clockwise from my right: Ivan Sleepyhead and Yvonne;

Kevin and Mandy, Sandy Toopai's same-age-as-me sis;

and Sandy Toopai Founder of Sandyland and me!

-Today! 15 Oct 08-
Owhmigosh! I was driving Ivan home today after sending Yvonne to her mum's shop (in super kadavalei-ly heavy rain and I was totally soaked!) and we got stuck in the friggin' jam for like, 10 hours! I was so bored I was growing mushrooms on my head! I had nothing better to do so I looked around and saw this fella on my left and I started laughing like mad cow!!! Owhmigosh!!! I laughed and I laughed and I laughed!! My tummy ached so much and I was practically hitting my hands on the steering wheel!!! Can you imagine? I wanted to laugh out loud so badly!! But I couldn't! I cannot! If I did Ivan would definitely wake up! I even had problem lifting my eyelids up wide enough to see where I put my phone! (owhmigosh even now, typing this thing, I'm laughing so damn hard!!) Phew~ Then I cooled down a bit and took these pictures. Then I looked at my screen and I laughed again! I pressed 'next' and I laughed again!! Owhmigosh I laughed and laughed until we had to move.
I think I built quite a lot of cheek muscles today. All thanks to Ivan!

>>Ivan thanks for exercising my cheeks!<<
>>I know you don't won't will not mind<<

Friday, October 10, 2008


It's been that long since I last blogged! Time passed by real quick these couple of weeks. I've got so much to share! But I'll just summarize everything up coz I still have loads of assignments waiting to expire. Sheesh. I hope I can remember everything (well at least the important parts) coz my memory's really... Well... I'm real good at forgetting stuff. Okay okay! We'll start on...

-I don't remember the date-
You know I lurrrve ice-cream. I still do, but... Hey fishballs are fantastic too! I developed this craze for fishballs like, a few month ago. Or was it two weeks ago? Nope, it was just a few days ago. Arrhh I don't remember but I look forward to mum's weekly trip to her Monday pasar malam nowadays because they sell the most delicious giant fishballs ever!

-01 Oct 08-
The first day of Raya! No school! Refuse to do assignment! Want fun fun fun!

14 cars, more than 60 people, as young as 3 years old to as old as uhh... 70 I guess, went on a trip to a beautiful waterfall in Perak -Lata Kinjang. Before that we stopped in Ipoh for lunch. Omigosh 50 people had lunch together in one reasturant. (some of us stayed in the car) Imagine that. Madness. It was really crazy! I mean, you should have been there! We took a few wrong turnings and had to make many U-turns. And each time we did that, we caused a jam! Other cars had to wait for 14 friggin' cars to complete the U-turns and then they can move. Our car was somewhere near the lead and I had the chance to see the mess we made. It was pretty cool! I mean, it's like some VIP or something that was making the U-turn! Everyone had to let us through first! So anyway, we reached the waterfall later on and dived in straight! I brought my sketch book along to do some life sketches. And I got some pretty interesting poses!

And when I was done, what else? I joined my brothers in the water! Mum took some pictures of us in the shallow part of the waterfall. The current's very strong even in the shallow area. I got washed away a few times and I had to hold on to my bro's foot for help! (yeah he pulled me up with his very hairy leg. Yeeee~)

Okay time for the real adventure! I decided to go up the waterfall. There's where the water really falls. (huh..??) So I pulled my sister along. Went up this really high and super slippery staircase-barefooted! (The ground felt kinda yucky)

Took us quite a while to get to the top because there were people coming down as well and the staircase was narrow. You get the picture. But when we reached the top, the scenery was wow! Awesome! Breathtaking! I was really amazed! Loads and loads of water pouring down from I-don't-know-where! It's like the shower at home, only a 10000000000 times more powerful! I thought, the amount of water gushing down from above in 5 seconds could easily fill my entire house! I stood there admiring God's awesome artwork for, what? 10 minutes? It was really really... *exhales* You should go there yourself and experience the awesome-ness!

After the waterfall, we went to Ipoh. 14 cars found parkings and 60+ people went here: a long stretch of tiny shops that sells nothing but...


There was a temple nearby so we paid it a visit too. They have these hung up the ceilings. They're huge!

And this frog is... Well...

We left after some sight-seeing around the temple. It was getting dark and our stomachs were making gru-gru-gru noises. Dinner yay! But! Some cars didn't manage to follow lead and got lost. Some other cars went searching for them while the others waited by the roadside. Finally we all met up and continued the journey, but we got lost again. Left, right, left, straight, left again. Aik?! I thought we passed this building just now? Left, straight, right, right. Omigosh~ We only had our dinner at what? 9.30 p.m.?! We left the temple at 6 plus!

So guys, don't underestimate Ipoh! Maps are important! And essential!

-02 Oct 08-

Second day of Raya! Dad didn't have to go to work so "Kia! Let's go Muar!"

"All the way there? For what?"

"Satay and otak-otak laa what else?!"

Omg. He's serious.

Dad, mum, me, sis and two bros had a plate of kwon-low mee, a plate of char-kuey-teaw, 2 bowls of ABC, 5 cans of cincau, 2 cans of 100plus, 20 satays and 100 otak-otak.


Dad: "Wey Malacca's cendol very sedap wan hoh?"

So yeah, we were kidnapped there. By dad.

Oh and I saw this really cute old-ie car there! Couldn't resist, had to take a picture of it. Really really like this kind of cars.

Oh did I mention? Mum bought a pair of chicks from Ipoh! They're adorable! But smelly.

This lil' fella pangsai-ed near my arm!

So I bullied him back.

And this is my youngest bro, Brian. Yeah he was in love with his chicks very much but he got bored with them and never played with them again after 2 days. So now the chicks are my mum's.

-03 Oct 08-

Back to school again. Started the day with a morning I-especially-hate-it Design Workshop class with Michael, our lecturer. Skip that. We went to a Chinese restaurant near our school for lunch. While waiting for our food;

Johnny: Okay everybody. Can you make four triangles out of these two by just moving ONE toothpick?

Chea Wen: Aiyer I can make four triangles without even moving ONE toothpick! See!

Johnny: (=.=)" Aiyok~ So simple also dunno~ Nah~

Chea Wen: Roar~

Anyway, during afternoon class... (Figure Studies, my favourite subject although I suck at it)

Celine: Eyh Chea Wen look. Guy or girl?

Chea Wen: Whaaa!! It's Kai!! XD
>>Kai hope you don't mind ya!<<

Earlier, Chua made this paper mustache exactly like the one our school guard has and taa-dah!Gee he looks so small beside the guard.

Then we had some fun with the paper mustache in Fig and taa-dah!

This is San Dee a.k.a. Sandy a.k.a. Toopai. Damn hiao huh? Hahah!

And this is Aaron. He's a Filipino+Chinese.>>Aaron you look like a gorilla in this picture! Hahah!<<

-Today! 09 Oct 08-

Had History of Arts in the morning. Daniel's our lecturer. He's a small guy who babbles a lot. Not long after class started today, Trish, Aaron and I noticed; Daniel likes to add "sort of like" and "kind of" in his every sentence! Omg~ So annoying! It really wasn't necessary! I'll give you examples;

" Dali is sort of like an artist who..."

"...painted this sort of like images of religions..."

"'s really kind of ironic that he sort of put this particular sort of objects from the.."


So Aaron and I decided to count his "sort of"s and "kind of"s. We were never this alert in any of his classes! I mean, it's friggin' History come on! I still took down notes and all though. Guess how many times Daniel mentioned "sort of" and "kind of" in our 2-hour lesson?


It's Aaron's turn to keep track of "sort of" and "kind of" next week. Brilliant way to keep us alive in History class. Really. Everybody, you should try it too!

Oh and by the way, Andy wore this really cute shirt today.The front.

The back!I love it! Hahah!

And a really hiao picture of Johnny at the end of Letterform class today. A big Sarawakian bear holding a bamboo brush between his nose and mouth. Gou-shiong rocks! XD

Got home very late today and was even later for tuition. Roar~ Thanks Debbie thanks Chrystal. I went teaching with empty stomach. But as I was leaving, Elly came around and handed me a warm plastic container. Felt pretty heavy. I reached home and opened it and fwaalaah! Pasta!! With a lot of button mushrooms and eggs! All my favourite! Thanks ya babe!

P.s. Thanks to you too Xiao Qing! Ya know... My brush... ;-)

Friday, September 26, 2008


I feel so gay! I can't believe how incredibly 'hiao' I was today! Hahah! (hiao as in, for those who don't know, sheesh.. This is hard to explain. Uhh.. I think the word 'hyperactive' and 'muka tebal' would describe my version of 'hiao' very well)

I had the most fun at school today. No, we didn't have my favourite subject today. In fact, one of our classes today was tought by the nastiest and meanest lecturer around. And it's Thursday, the longest day of classes in the entire week. (class is supposed to end at 5 p.m. but we were only allowed to leave at 5.30++ because we made noise. Yenadei?) Before that, in the morning, we had History! No doubt the most boring class ever but I was wide awake and I actually took down every single word of the slides during lecture! (okay I lied. Not every single word, but close!) Jonathan offered me chocolates oohlaalaa~ Something I had to totally stay away from for the past two weeks already and oohlaalaa~ It was heavenly...

I still haven't recovered from whatever illness I had but I really really wanted to eat laksa! So Xiao Qing, Johnny, Andy, Celine, Kai, Coco and me had laksa! (okay I lied again. Xiao Qing and Andy had nasi lemak and Kai had rojak) I behaved myself in Laksa Shack but Xiao Qing, Johnny and Andy insisted that I was way over 'hiao'! (I was???) Really really enjoyed crapping and making fun out of everything during lunch. Wish I could do this everyday!

In Calligraphy, Jonathan asked me to help him sharp his pencil. (we aren't allowed to use a sharpener. We use cutters or blades like how the caveman sharpen their weapons) My left thumb hurt like mad! I mean, it's a no wonder actually. I sharpened his carpenter pencils twice each. He has two. Then I did mine. I have one carpenter pencil and three normal ones. Why on earth did they make carpenter pencils with such thick wood?! (roar!) I still can't feel the tip of my thumb. It's gone completely numb.

Basically it was a very normal day. But because I was feeling over the moon, everything looked like candy! Means sweet, delicious, pleasant, yummy... Anything but bad stuff. (what am I crapping now?) But hey, if I was given a wish, I would wish that I feel this way every single day. The day passed by real fast but it's filled with smiles and smiles and smiles. So I made a conclusion. Whatever my day is like, it really all depends on me. I determine how my day will turn out to be. I never thought like this before. I (sometimes) used to blame it on other things or people if my day is unpleasant. Hmm time for a change.

Someone once told me;
"Appreciate everything you have,
even if it's the most worthless thing you ever had."
I would, now. I promise (I'll try) to look at everything from the brightest side I can, so that I could live the happy person I've lived today everyday and make my life ~worthwhile.

P.s. We're playing basketball right after class tomorrow! Can't wait!

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

well well

My head had been pounding every single day since more than a week ago! Even today! I had the usual running nose, cough, sorethroat, you name it. Doc said "You got the full package." ~smiles~ I went "Kadavalei~" (means oh my God in Tamil) and the doc chuckled. (he's an Indian) And last Saturday, I was only awake for 4 or 5 hours. I slept like there's no tomorrow! It was the best day ever! Except that I was downright ill and there were (and still are!) tonnes and tonnes and tonnes and tonnes of assignments waiting to 'expire'.

But that aside, it was a pretty good week actually. I had several matters sorted out. One, had bugged me over the past few months. But right now, all I wanna do is smile and be grateful with everything. (minus assignments) The short chat with my best friend the other night made me realise a couple of things.

"Life doesn't need to be perfect.
As long as I remember you,
and you remember me,
it's more than enough."
Very true indeed. Sometimes, life gets so complicated you really feel all tangled up. Try as you might, you cannot do anything to make things better. You don't give up, but it all turns out in vain. You don't choose, but the right time, right place and everything else falls just into place and there. It's sorted out. Because someone told you just what you needed to hear most at that very minute.

You're my bestest best friend in the whole wide world and noone could ever, ever replace you. I know we both have our separate paths in life. I know how different our lifestyles is. I know you have your own stuff to bother about and I know you know I do too. We've grown apart over the years and we both realise this. Who is to know what the future looks like? I don't. But one thing I do know, is that I'll make sure our friendship lasts till the end of time. You might think I've become whiny and needy and all, but once in a while Kerry, it'll be nice if I'm assured. I'm glad, though, that you still cherish our friendship as much as you always have.

So now, only a teeeeeny weeny better, I'm back to design and deadlines and never-ending assignments. I wish we have 40 hours instead of 24 a day!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

a mix

Everyone of us loves and cares. You love because you care so much. But sometimes, you just don't love enough to care. I never knew I could feel so many emotions at one time. But yesterday proved me wrong. I loved, I hated, I played, I worried, I felt happy, I felt sad, I cared, I dismissed, I laughed, and I cried...

It was a special day, to me at least. All I wanted to do was to get over with morning class and head home for a (I knew it would be) a quiet lunch with a very very dear friend, and be happy with it. For all I know, the day turned out to be filled with surprises. I reached home to find a box full of neatly-arranged beach-themed colourful cupcakes waiting for me in the fridge. I took the car for a service and found a paperbag of presents at the rear passenger seat. Who doesn't like pleasant surprises? I wore a small smile for what I thought would be the rest of the day. I wasn't feeling well, both emotionally and physically. I tried my best though, because I didn't wanna spoil the mood of those around me. But something kept popping up in my head and I can't help but sigh to myself once in a while. Still, I managed to pull through the evening.

Night came. I wanted so much to talk to my dear dear friend, but... So I texted her instead. I was surprised she replied with a call. Bits of chats here and there. Lots of pauses. Both were so emo. Then, she broke down. I was at loss for words. I was never good at soothing and calming talk. I felt so useless...

This person, is someone I care... Someone I love very much. Someone very dear to me. Hearing her across the phone like that, I was really overwhelmed... In all that she was going through, she still took the time and effort to make the day so memorable for me. And I couldn't do anything to ease her worries even by a tiny bit. I hated myself for that.

I promise you I'm always there
When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair
I'll carry you when you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand

You understand...